luahan rasa..

This entry will somehow, contains rojak of story..mind you early!

Assalamualaikum to all readers (if any).

I'm not gonna talk too much (I try). just want to share some of my thoughts for today. Yesterday I am so happy! baking pizza by my own. Alhamdulillah jadi, just doh tak berapa keras. I used 'High Protein Flour' based on my findings in Internet. but maybe I miss some important steps, maybe.

and yesterday watching Loopers really make my mind puzzled, dizziness spread all over my head. lol. found this film with highly recommended from users at website Rotten Tomatoes. overall, i give 4 stars out of 5. Really it made me crazy just to understand the flow of the film. Time travel & action genre. U guys gotta watch! worth i guess, because in the end, it's the mother's touch that somehow can control us from doing the sins. and of course us as Muslim has to abide all the rules from Allah as our Creator.

ok, done with Loopers, I'm gonna focus on what happen today actually. This 1 thing really bug me, maybe for a while, maybe last forever? I don't know. It happens between me and couple of my students. We misunderstood something. And of course, as usual, lecturers are always right when it comes to lecturer+student matters. Even between teachers+students. (but for me, as a human, mistakes is normal, but there's plenty of ways to wisely tell someone their mistakes) because as what we've been told during kids, it is really really important to respects our teachers after our beloved parents. (not included those mind-sicko teachers-maybe only 5% of them exists-maybe lack of inner faith with their religion.)

and what matters here is, is about how the students behave to me, and to some of others lecturers too. We've already think too much on how to 'save' them and try to give the best solutions for them to repair their document, their report to be exact.

"Mane repot yg saya dah tanda before this? So I can compare the correction you've made now"

"Oh, kami dah bukak ring comb"

"****" (dalam hati gua)

"sebab kami nak jimat"

"ohh bab2 belajar nak jimat pulak?"

"awak kene buat banyak pengorbanan mase belajar ni"

and somehow I can't remember one of the student's reply but it's really pissed me off!!

"awak boleh jawab macam tu kat Puan ****** yg dah fikir cara utk repair your report ni?"

and akak colleague aku pon sambung ape yang aku dah cakap tu:

"awak ingat Miss Ain macam ni, dia akan bagi markah tinggi kat awak? We as supervisors don't simply give marks based on your product. but we evaluate you guys all-around. Comprise of (sambil tunjuk rubrik pemarkahan student), comprise of your attitude, effort, your writing, cooperation with your team members. We are not giving marks like your final presentation assessors."

aku dah diam. malas nak bercakap dengan student yang kuat menjawab tapi tak fikir ape impaknya kat dalam hati seorang pengajar. ohh, there's some other things my colleagues mention about:

"awak kene ingat yang awak berurusan dengan manusia. Kami bukan robot yang takde hati & perasaan"

I hope those students manage to think. Time bekeja kalau attitude still sama, sorry to say, you're gonna be hated by your colleagues. Though deep down in my heart I hope that things never happened in anyone especially my own students.

in the end when the students left;

"akak, saya rasa saya pon ade masalah dari segi bla bla bla bla"

yes true, I admit my own mistakes. It seems not good to blame, to keep on saying the students wrong. But I guess I (or even most of my colleagues) will be 'softer' (lembut) if the students keep on listening our suggestions rather than menjawab every little thing we said. Gila. Penat aku rase ha menaip dah boleh jadi 1 entry.

Daripada meluahkan kat orang, somehow it is just nice to share here. Lantak la sape nak bace, bace. yang penting adab dengan pengajar kene jaga. aku bukan malaikat or pembesar ke Datuk or V.I.P. but at least as students, it is best to respect those educators. simple as that!

and me as well, has to improve myself. InsyaAllah I will do that.

To the rest of my students, always know that we lecturers enjoy teaching you, we love to share knowledge with you guys. It is not an easy job mind you. It's all about patient and sacrifice. So please, please, please show at least some respect to your educators. be it a formal educator or even anyone who already teach you knowledge, be it about cooking, life, etc.

"Respect others in order to be respect!" - this quote make me reflects myself; am I lack on respecting others? because life is a circle by the way.

Adios! Wallahu'alam..

Isnin tak bersalah!

Assalamualaikum semua :)

di keheningan pagi ISNIN nan permai ini, aku pon ringankan lah jari jemari runcing nan halus (harapan) nk coret serba sedikit bout ape yg berlaku dalam life aku lately..oh by the way, motif aku capital kan word ISNIN tadi sebab aku CUTI arini! haha.hahahahaha. actually ade reason lain nak cuti, tapi trip cancel, so lepak je la umah ha. best gak, pagi2 dah anta adek apiz g Sek, PMR for today; paper Math & KH. hope he will do his very best! amin Ya Allah~

erm macam tak best plak update blog tengah dia jawab exam. nak baca pape yg patot jap la. heh. pendek gile entry ni. takpelah, buat syarat. agagaga..till then~ adioz!

hati bagai dikocak..

I miss writing..

I mean i miss the time where i can type my thoughts here, but now banyak gile kekangan kot (otak blur teros ckap melayu. haha)

ok lah, condition, i mean hopefully urs and mine condition are in normal level. harap2nye gitulah. otak aku dah weng sket ni. keje kat opis menimbun!

skang da minggu ke-11 P&P, ade lagi 5 sem minggu until their final. aku plak cuak. apehal?

ohh and also this week ade audit dalaman. esok file under aku kene check. huhu. makmal n aset sket.

dan baru2 ni, aku cam frust sket. sket kau kate??? frust dalam2 gak la. macam susu dibalas tuba. imagine that ko dah tumpahkan seluruh ilmu, then that person cam tembak ko balik. not directly tembak sampai mati la, tapi bagi efek gak la kat aku. sumpah time aku tau tu aku sedih. gile babeng. dari ceria, terus senyap. terus membawa diri yang hiba..aku macam nak clear mind bout this little thingy yang bugging aku ..tp still ade. ahhhh

dan jugak, mcm2 la kt opis. haih. penin. aku kalut. sungguh! malas nk compare diri dgn org lain, tapi kadang2 TERcompare.

lalu...aku pon....disebabkan dah taktau nk mengadu kat sape. i mean i'd share my thoughts with some of my colleagues n my fiance, but same jugak jiwa kacau.

lalu, dengan penuh pengharapan mengharapkan ketenangan, aku capai al-Quran kat rak, then bace..n that meaning, really2 suit with my conditions now..air mata..meleleh lajuuu..not dat I'm saying Imma pious person, nope! really not (but hope so to be la)..

It's just dat all your problems are already being answered in this one mukjizat yang kekal till akhir zaman. Wanna know the ayat? Flip surah ar-Ra'd, ayat 22,24,26,28. and hayati the meaning. I paste here:

"Dan orang-orang yang sabar kerana mengharapkan keredaan Tuhan mereka semata-mata, dan mendirikan sembahyang, serta mendermakan dari apa yang Kami kurniakan kepada mereka, secara bersembunyi atau secara terbuka; dan mereka pula menolak kejahatan dengan cara yang baik; mereka itu semuanya adalah disediakan baginya balasan yang sebaik-baiknya pada hari akhirat; " [Ar-Ra'du: ayat 22]

"Allah memewahkan rezeki bagi sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya, dan Ia juga yang menyempitkannya. Dan mereka (yang ingkar): bergembira dengan kehidupan dunia, sedang kehidupan dunia itu tidak lain, hanyalah kesenangan yang kecil dan tidak kekal berbanding dengan kesenangan hari akhirat. " [Ar-Ra'du: ayat 26]

the rest, u guys better check by yourself kay. Wallahu'alam..May Allah bless all of us..amin..

kerna separuh aku..dirimu..

Separuh Aku - Noah Band.



Dan terjadi lagi
Kisah lama yang terulang kembali
Kau temukan lagi
Dari cinta rumit yang kau jalani

Aku ingin kau merasa
Kamu mengerti aku mengerti kamu
Aku ingin kau sadari
Cintamu bukanlah dia

Dengar laraku
Suara hati memanggil namamu
Karena separuh aku
Dirimu

Ku ada disini
Pahamilah kau tak pernah sendiri
Karena aku selalu
Di dekatmu saat engkau terjatuh

Aku ingin kau merasa
Kamu mengerti aku mengerti kamu
Aku ingin kau sadari
Cintamu bukanlah dia

Dengar laraku
Suara hati memanggil namamu
Karena separuh aku
Dirimu

Dengar laraku
Suara hati ini memanggil namamu
Karena separuh aku
Menyentuh laramu
Semua lukamu telah menjadi lirihku
Karena separuh aku
Dirimu

p/s: love this song, aku bole plak da parking tadi g layan lagu ni sampai abes. terbuai bak kate sesetengah orang. hah. tapi jangan over2 plak kay :)

ar btw, the vocalist is Ariel Peterpan upenye..patotla mcm cam je suara die. hehe..

Ya Rabb..

......

Aku dah usaha, sedaya upaya, mencaribagai nak gila ilmu yang berkaitan..

Hanya pada Mu Allah aku berserah..

Segala qada' n qadarMu aku terima seadanya..

Semoga niat asalku untuk membantu, Kau redha,

Kau tempat aku mengadu,

Kau tempat aku luahkan segala relung hati

Tiada yang lain tempat ku berharap

Aku redha..sungguh..

berkecamuk fikiran..

Assalamualaikum..

[KEJE]

currently at PD, Teluk Kemang to be exact. Ade Kursus Web Programming. gune Tools: Notepad++ je ngn XAMPP. haha best kan? kesian aku yang da berabuk ilmu pasal web programming ni, tu la sape suh apply ni utk PPK aritu. wakaka. tapi best gak, at least pasni aku lebih faham ape student wat for their final project. ngeh2 :)

tapi jumaat ni ade presentation project. huk. terduduk aku memikir. haha poyo, takpe, got other team members; kak Di and kak Zura, dorang lagi otai dari aku bab2 ni. heheh *muka berseri2 macam shin chan.

[RINDU]

skip! kalo tak, ko bole kene sembelit bace entri aku yang part ni. hehe.

[PERSIAPAN]

gedik gila plak rase wat entri ni. tapi stage aku baru listing guest la. trace susur galur family belah ayah, belah mak. kawan2 sume lom trace lagi ni.

ade pepatah mengatakan sedikit-sedikit lama2 jadi bukit. aku plak pikir sedikit2 so tak membebankan compared ngn lump sum. ok la kan :)

macam2 dah berlegar kat kepala. dah jot down da pon. aku siap google lagi. ade tu siap bgtau stage 1 year before majlis. I was like; gile ape nak plan 1 year before? wakaka. ni kalo ikutkan countdown maybe bout less than 7 months je ha. hihi.

tapi aku tak rase pape lagi. just kadang2 cuak gak memikir tanggungjawab n status yang bertukar. kalau orang da kenal / follow blog aku dari mule (macam la ade) tau la cmne pattern aku ni. tapi insyaAllah setiap orang leh je kan kan kan . haha (motivate diri sendiri)

p/s: jodoh dan mati itu terletak di tangan Allah. tapi kite cam lupe yang mati tu memang PASTI sedangkan kite tak semestinya akan sempat kawin sebelum mati..hmm..

..kau yang terindah

Macam2 bermain dalam fikiran..

Seriously I need an organizer. hahaha. ok mmg aku ade buku utk jot down everything. ok, i'm not using those electronic gadget thingy to put my things there. i got no samsung nor iPhone babe. nokia saja. but serious important la itu calendar, i jot everything down there. n even when ppl ask for my schedule, i quickly search from it.

nk tulih sini boleh? antaranya:

1. i wanna change 2 things in my life now; but still don't have concrete plan bout it, so lek2 lu. sambil usha tenet, usha macam2 la. even when went to that place, but still in survey mode (poyo mode pon ON gak.haha)

2. i'm thinking of fulfilling my time after work now. I mean during nite la. niat hati suci murni, arakian idea datang berguling2. tapi kalo balik umah, mandi, solat, tido. apekes? please la. (ade gaya cabar diri sendiri tak? haha forget la bout it ain) hehe

3. waiting for an offer for something that i'd apply, but to no avail, until now don't get the answer; still pending org tu kate. takpela, mungkin rezeki aku bukan di situ..saving je la dulu skang. hahak

4. planning for the big day. actually i am more to preparation for post-wedding. haha.

Think it's enough for the moment. nothing more to be explain for. as people still don't get the idea what the hell i'm talking about. haha. k, cao~

p/s: ok, tajuk entry sangat takde kaitan. it's just that I lurve the melody of the sound song =)